Everyone always talks about taking those leaps of faith but no one ever talks about what it feels like when you’re falling. Also, are there statistical odds that you’ll fly rather than fall?

I’ve leaped many times before and it brought so many experiences that were needed for my development. I’ve leaped and I’ve lost. I’ve leaped and been curious. I’ve leaped and found passion. But I’ve leaped so much that “gravity” has had enough and pulled me down into a space I cannot seem to get out of.

I don’t want to jump into the abyss but rather just be gifted. Rewarded for honesty and purity. The truth is, I just want to be found… by Love.

Love has played a game of hide and seek these past few years. Love – that crazy mf. I thought it was Love that recently flew me to Miami on my annual girls trip last month where I had my first, shall I say, private “liberating” experience. Thought it was Love that flew me to Atlanta last week where I fell in lust with two special people from my past. Love that has secured a spot for me to fly to Vegas, Houston then LA this upcoming month for drunken fun, connections, events, and escaping reality. I thought Love was hiding behind the shots of Casamigos tequila, the roaring laughter of my friends, the generous connection of my first love, the sensual touches of my guy bestie, and the compliments that showered my new hair color. But, let me tell you that this is a level of madness that I cannot begin to explain. 

“What does Love mean to you though?” Each word of this question tapped my body so gently and whispered a comforting hum into my ear. Relaxed and vulnerable I answered, “Love means I can and will live my life openly outside of the strict thumb of my Nigerian culture. Love means I can and will have a lucrative career doing what I hunger for. Love means I’ll outwardly be seen for who I am, accepted me for who I am, acknowledged, praised, sought after, desired, respected, cherished, and protected. The job to realize my worth, the friends to know I’m their support haven, the family to know I’m still present, the guy to know I deserve those kisses to mean more, and Love to know I’m ready for it all.”

You. I Love you so much. Just give it a chance.